It occurred to me today that it’s been a year since I started my shortlister social media campaign for Tourism Australia’s Best Jobs in the World Contest.
A year ago today I was named one of the top 25 out of 600,000 people for the Park Ranger position and now had to earn my spot in the final three. (Read about my 2013 Best Jobs contest here).
All I could dream about was going to Australia, becoming an Aussie expert, and hoping that I could manifest my goals into reality. More than ANYTHING I wanted to be their Park Ranger. (Plus, getting paid the $100,000 for a six month working-holiday visa didn’t sound too shabby).
It wouldn’t be until the middle of May 2013 that this dream would come crashing down around me. But I digress.
The point is, ten days from today, I give up my title as Miss Nevada. I will be passing it along to the next United States system winner, and saying goodbye to what has arguably been one of the most exciting and opportunistic years of my life.
And I’m kind of sad about it.
But if you had told me a year ago today that I would be sad over losing a title I had not yet won, I would have LAUGHED in your FACE. Because I was an ADVENTURE girl. NOT a PAGEANT girl. And I had a job to win.
Because in that moment 365 days ago, nothing was more important than getting my butt Down Under.
But now, 365 days later, I couldn’t even imagine growing in the ways that I have without losing that contest.
I want to be the kind of person who believes everything happens for a reason. I guess that means I should be the kind of person who also believes somethings don’t happen for a reason.
So I’m taking tonight to honor my younger, doe-eyed self, and the broken dream of Park Ranger that led to this soon-to-be fulfilled one as Miss Nevada.
I hope you’ll take a moment to thank the Universe for your own broken dreams. Because sometimes, they’re obnoxious blessings that later show their true colors. If you take a look back on your own last trip around the sun, you may see changes in your life due to failure. And chances are, you’re better for these changes.
But what do I know? I’m just a girl who wanted to be a Park Ranger who’s now a beauty queen. I can’t be trusted. :)